I Remember ..

I remember trying to remember the correct meds to dispense.
I remember always making him laugh.
I remember stopping to pick up a blunt for him, no idea what I was doing.
I remember sleeping by his feet.
I remember his friends calling for updates.
I remember shuffling pretty Flamingo dancer playing cards to pass the time.
I remember love.
I remember his voice.
I remember him asking me which shirt looked best.
I remember him rolling his eyes at me.
I remember he was always more worried about me, but I wish he left a note.
I remember, I remember, I remember the art cart at Sloan. Decorating the bulletin board in his hospital rooms. Putting up pretty pictures or things to make him laugh.
I remember him always smiling — most of the time.
I remember it being just us.
I remember to take my medicine.
I remember thoughts are just thoughts.
I remember to try for Joe.
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A Sister’s Love for Her Brother.